Emotionally Detached People

We all go through things in life that make us stronger, better, and wiser. We also can go through things that make us colder, bitter, and apathetic. Some of us become more kinder and compassionate in certain subjects while others don't give much "grace." I believe we live in a very apathetic and emotionally detached society. Just look at the latest news happening from popular musical artists to us everyday "common folk." Emotional detachment has become a regular deal in American society but many of us are too goddamn blind to see it. Emotional detachment can spring from mentally traumatic events in our lives such as rape, abuse, failed relationships, and financial problems. The larger the amount of these events, the more detached we can become. Emotional detachment can also stem from the environment(s) we're around. The healthier the environment, the mentally healthier the person. And "if this is not so, ahhh, god bless...(Jay-Z's Friend or Foe). I know I see it and can say that I'm one of those emotionally detached people. Most of my "issues" have been mental, which began from the ages of 6/7. I can say over the past 15 years of my life, I've become more apathetic and emotionally detached. I didn't recognize how bad I've become until this past weekend. My wife told me that my body is here but my mind is somewhere else. Shit, that cut deep but the process of illumination began. I began to see how I've built this wall around me to keep everyone out. I realized how I've arrested emotions to feel but became a person of stone. I've become the very thing a close of friend of mine 3 years ago warned me not to be. In layman's terms, I became an "unlikable asshole." The great thing about this is that I know I'm not the only one. I reckon that if a person gets to the point when they don't call their friends or family on a regular basis, that's a positive sign. If a person can be married to someone yet shows no affection to their spouse, that's a positive sign. If a person allows certain beliefs and/or religious/political/cultural views to repress their actual essence, that's a positive sign. I believe the best solution is for a "day one ish" person to call us out on our shit. As the first step of the scientific method, to reach a solution, we must first identify the problem. I think each person goes through this and our person is determined by how we handle emotional detachments; that is, from ourselves, our family/friends, and the world around us. Hell, what do I know?


Til Next Time....

Sunday Edition: There Is Life After Jesus

Hello, friends, it's been a long time since I've written a blog; a lot has changed. I'll tell you now, it's taking a lot of out me to write this post because in the black community, this train of thought is frowned upon. It's sort of blasphemous for anyone in the black community not believe in or live for Jesus Christ. In my opinion, it's feels like anyone who doesn't believe is considered worse than a "sinner man." I can say this because in my "christian days", I would go ham on anyone who didn't believe in Jesus, from atheists, to Muslims, to people who experienced "church hurt." I'd "witness" to them about the "love of Jesus" and provide "chapter and verse" to support my work "in Jesus' name."
Today, I'm not that same man and very much a non believer of Jesus.

Since early 2012, my out-processing of the christian faith has been an arduous one. Many of my family and friends don't know that I'm an agnostics, hell, borderline atheist. During this process, I've taken the time to step out of the christian community and analyze things with a broader perspective. I've finally concluded that Jesus is nothing more than a deadbeat father (well, that's if he existed). I see that we in the black community have been indoctrinated to love this "jesus" with all our heart, mind, soul, and strength. We are taught to live for Christ, shame this "devil", pray, believe, go to church, worship him, and wait to go to heaven after we die. Well, that's all lies. I believe, the main reason why many of us believe and serve Jesus is because we are fearful of going to hell.

We are indoctrinated with this and it's caused a cognitive dissonance that muddies reality. We are taught that we are nothing with god and cannot experience success without christ. Hell, nowadays, we're told that anyone who is black with riches and wealth are members of the Illuminati and have sold their souls to Bhapmomet. Lies. Many of us are praying, fasting, worshipping, preaching, singing, and serving yet hear that voice in our spirits saying, "when are you going to give this up?" Some of us maybe hearing our your true conscience saying, "don't you think there is more to your life than doing all of this?" Some of you believe that if you have legitimate doubts about christianity that you are succumbing to the "wiles of the devil." Some of you are in church services nodding your head to the words of a preacher but deep inside you feel like your trapped. Some of you want to do great things with your life but the rules founded in the scriptures and the hypocritical Christian culture have developed mental chains from you doing this.

Many of us believe that if we don't believe in jesus that our lives are over. It's not and believe me, your life will blossom even more without jesus. Some people in my life are hoping that I'll come back home (church and jesus), forget all that my family has experienced, and get back on track. That'll never happen because I'm living a life that's far better than what I had with jesus. My career is really going forward in the right direction (promoted five times within 5 years), a son of my own, new friends who  love me without hidden intentions, and most importantly, me being what I want to be. In the christian religion, I was hammered with achieving the purpose jesus wanted me to have but it was more like me chancing a dangling carrot (and a hamster on a wheel). I had to paint my face with happiness but I was a sad sack of shit. Although I still have problems (like anybody else), I'm finally experiencing happiness.

You see, I've learned and still learning that I don't need to find strength, love, happiness, contentment, or success from somebody I can't see. All of that is in me and it's my responsibility to achieve those accolades. To be quiet honest, it behooves you to do the same. I believe your life will be more blessed without jesus than with jesus. There's no need to serve someone you'll never see in this life or the next (if there is one). There's no need for you to forgive undeserving people because you want "jesus" to forgive you (remember, forgiveness is not given but earned). There's no need for you to give your money in the church's collection plate hoping god will bless you (that money needs to be invested in yourself). It's time to take back the reins of your life and live the life you want to live. This life is limitless and religion (that includes relationship with jesus) only roadblocks your way to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness.

If your thinking of leaving the faith, I support you. It's not easy because people are going to come at you and try to make you doubt on the decision that works best for you. At the end of it all, there is life after jesus and once you begin living life on your terms, those same people coming at you will be jealous of you. Live the life you want to live, live your truth, live it responsibly, live it with no regrets (at least try to...). If this is you, get out of the pews, walk towards the exit door, open the exit door, and the crazy world around that's called sinful as your place of freedom.

'Til next time....

Silence Within The Black Community

For the past couple of weeks, hip-hop pioneer Afrika Bambaataa has been accused of molestation from people that could've been his victims. After this shit hits the fan, KRS-One comes out to defend one of the founding fathers of hip-hop.

Since the deaths of Trayvon Martin, Mike Brown, and Eric Gardner, an organization called the Black Lives Matter Movement has been on the rise from Ferguson Missouri to Baltimore Maryland. In a nutshell, it's purpose is to bring awareness of crimes against black people by the powers that be, cops and the white man. However, there's a bunch of other shit it doesn't stand for nor won't talk about (I'll get to that later).

Two pastors from the Atlanta area and The Gump Alabama got snitched on by the people they exposed and/or infected with the AIDS/HIV virus. 100 plus pastors secretly had a meeting with Donald Trump, who's openly dissed women, Latinos, and Muslims, and have given their full political affiliation to his cause. Hell, a well known pastor from ATL asked his supporters to donate their taxable incomes to help buy him a 65 million dollar tax write-off plane (which he already bought).

A mother (probably single) from San Antonio Texas was charged with abusing her children, from having two of her children on a leash and the home they all stayed was a shit hole. If anyone who's a father paying child support in the great state of Texas, the majority of custody cases favors women. Let's break it down further. Do you notice child support doesn't go to the kids but to these mothers, who are, as Juvenile termed, "Project Chicks?" The weaves, the nails, the sorry ass men they're screwing while the fathers have to flip the bill.

These different scenarios and more aren't discussed in the black community and anyone who says something politically incorrect (offense to the community), they're blacklisted. Coon, sell-out, Oreo, Uncle Tom, or the devil. However, these different scenarios are running rampant in the black community and it's time they be addressed. Fuck praying and fasting about this shit. Fuck using religion, Jesus, Allah, holy books, and whatever other spiritual monotony to deflect our problems. It's about time to kill the biggest elephants in the room that is still keeping us in the predicaments we're in, blaming slavery and the white man for where we are today.

Yes, the present black community is still feeling the effects of slavery; however, we can't put all the blame on the "white man." You know who we need to blame? We need to blame the people who sold us out for women, land, control, power, money, weapons, and other trade deals; our African ancestors (do your research). Case and point, until we begin to research and educate ourselves on these matters we're going to continue to guidelines laid out for us by the Willie Lynch letters.

Which leads to the ignorance of the BLM movement....

It's funny how BLM talk about the injustices white people and the police have incurred against blacks. They look for a black person to get knocked off by police so they can torch neighborhood businesses, people's cars, people's houses, loot stores, march, and scream at police barricades. However, when a 9 year old girl in Ferguson Missouri was killed by a stray bullet from a probable act of gang activity. Was there a march, looting, and rioting for her? A couple of months ago, right here in The Gump, some innocent folks got shot by some black ass-wipes over nothing. When a elderly gentleman got shot by a cop (after a struggle in the dead of night), here comes BLM showing their muscles. Let's not forget about the high murder rates in places like Chicago Illinois and the widespread drug trades/gang activity in Kinston North Carolina. Hell, when two black cops killed a white young boy in New Orleans, there was hardly any press about this tragedy. Where is BLM at these places? Where are the marches and the protests denouncing these behaviors within the black community? If someone who knows about these different crimes, they keep their mouths shut in fear of retribution from some niggly hoodlums.

Molestation is real and it's rampant, from the projects, to the suburbs, to the schools, and in the church. Shit, I'm of this bullshit and to this day, I'm still working to unravel myself from its effects in my life. There's a code of silence in our community when it comes to this matter. When people who do this shit to others, namely children, mentally disabled, the disadvantaged, and elderly, we're told to keep this shit a secret. But do you know what happens when you keep a secret like this? It fucks with you. For some, they go to drugs, some to alcohol, others to promiscuity, some to suicide, and some of the abused become the abuser. When someone is dealing with these issues, we're quick to say it's sin, the devil, and don't help them seek professional help. They don't have the forums, places, or freedom to express the pain that's been inflicted. They are told to forgive their abusers, let the pain go, and move it along It's easier said than done and these victims bear the weight of this shame; however, their abusers get away "Scott Free." Therefore, the cycle of molestation continues and god-damn if a public figure gets outed, the first reaction by us in the black community is to defend them.

Which leads me to my next point.....these bum ass, no job having ass preachers.....

Out of the various pastors/preachers getting outed for exposing/infecting people (men & women) of HIV/AIDS, one got sentenced to prison and the other one, well, he just lost his church (which is still gong on to this day, why?). After the media railroaded this well-known ATL pastor for his multi-million dollar acquisition, he plays the defense and accuses the media of being "agents of Satan." The fucked up part is that he's got that plane, flying wherever he wants to go (and probably not for ministerial reasons), and nobody can do shit about it. Well, something could be done about it but that would need members of the black community to vacate his services every week and take their talents (time, money, skills) elsewhere. However, many like the members of this pastor's congregation are brainwashed, indoctrinated, and told "not to touch the Lord's anointed." Most of us in the black community are afraid of questioning these pastors/preachers because we feel that if we do so, hell and God's displeasure is our fate.

Since the 1980s, the church and the gospel of Christ hasn't helped the black community deal with the epidemic of HIV/AIDS. Instead of providing condoms, proper sex education, and awareness of this still fatal disease, we're told to "marry than burn in sexual sin." We're told to be sexually pure (not have sex) but in many instances, people do what they're told not to do. For some reason, some of us hate condoms and get infected with various diseases. One gets an STD from another and then they infect someone else. Then they keep this shit a secret and as the hands in worship services go up and as the offering plates get full, people are a walking petri dish in Jesus' name (especially in the black gay/bi-sexual male and heterosexual black female communities-i.e. - CDC).

And this leads to my next point, child abuse......

What this mother did to her kids is fucked up but it's just an open door to what's going on in the black community. The extension cords, the brutal beat downs, the verbal abuse, the sexual abuse, impoverished living arrangements, crime, credit fraud against under aged children, and high rates of single mothers; all in the black community. Some of these products are residual effects from the generational cycles laid upon us since slavery. My question is, when is it going to be addressed?

There are a bunch of other situations prevalent in our community I don't have the time to touch on. I decided to put these on the table because these three different types are fucking up our bodies, our minds, our hearts, and our spirits. We're allowing sensationalized media, traditions, and bandwagon views keep us from telling the truth; hell, being the truth. And God isn't going to come off his/her throne to save us. Stop believing in fairy tales. It's time for us to take off the iron masks from our heads and stop being silent. It's time for us to be logical and reasonable. Take it from a man who's fighting to unravel himself from being a nigger into a human being. We've got our kids to help in a world, in a society, that makes it hard for us to be and do as we please.

Take Care. DgWo

Should We Always Forgive?

I've wanted to put my thoughts down about this topic for a while because I believe the conversation about forgiveness is discussed from a religious perspective; not from a logical perspective. Since Christianity is the monopoly of American culture, we are indoctrinated from birth it's mandatory for us to "forgive others that God may forgive us." If we "don't forgive, God won't forgive us" and we don't question this pseudo "mandate from heaven." Today, I'd like to question it because I believe it's complete and utter bullshit. I believe we shouldn't always have a forgiving heart when people do us or anyone else dirty. So with this post, I'd like to point out a couple of things we need to logically investigate the food that's been fed to us for years based on writings to make us counter-productive when it comes to conflict resolution within ourselves, between others, and the option of forgiveness. Please, let's put our Korans, Bibles, and degrees down; let's think logically and intricately.


1. Should we forgive people when they continuously, knowingly, and with great severity harm us and others?  HELL NO. For the majority of my life, I've lived in the Bible Belt, North Carolina, South Carolina, Texas, and Alabama. Within the past few months, I've brought up the issue of forgiveness when it comes to this question. Do you want to know what the answers were? I'm glad you asked. "Jesus said, we've got to forgive our brothers (sisters) seventy times seven." "If we don't forgive others, God won't forgive us, and if we die with unforgivness in our hearts, we'll go to hell." "Unforgiveness holds you back while the people that hurt you are moving on with our lives, not even thinking about you." Does this apply to those people who've been lied to over and over and over again by financial specialists (bankers, investors, loan holders, insurance agents) and have their monies /credit drained to the bone marrow without apology? What about those men and women who were rape or sexual abuse by a family member repeatedly but their abuser never apologies or confesses? Come to think about it, what about those service members who were raped (and reported it to their "superiors) yet their abusers are protected by the powers that be, excel in their military careers, and never apologize to their victim(s)? Should a parent continue to forgive their kids who continually steal, lie, and cheat (with crocodile tear apologies)? What about those people who know what they're doing is wrong and still fucking people over? Should people in these situations forgive those who've wronged them? There are a lot of people I've screwed over in my lifetime, some I haven't apologized for my actions. To be quiet honest, shit, I may never confess or apologize for bullshit I've done (the dichotomy of man, haha). Should they forgive me? Should people forgive me after knowing what I've done to them I'm also knowingly and consistency doing to others? Do you think the court of law forgives people who commit multiple offenses (murder, tax evasion, fraud, child neglect, etc.)? Put yourself in that position and think about it.

2. Does God really not forgive people who won't forgive others?  HELL NO. I recently had a conversation about this and of course I get the well-known answer I've been getting my entire life. "We have to forgive others that God will forgive us"; all of which is based on a book written by men to control other men (more so the common, working, poor men/women/children of any society). Honestly, will a God who's infinite, omnipotent, omniscient, and is forever not forgive mortals who rightly hold unforgiveness towards people ? Doesn't make any sense yet people continue to think otherwise. How do we know if God turns his or her back on us because we refuse to forgive others? Within the context of Christian culture, when something tragic happens (financial, loss of life, etc.), that's God's judgment upon us. Well, that's complete bullshit because we can't control the ever-changing tides of life and death. We don't know what the hell is on God's mind, no matter if we're the pope, an imam, an apostle, or a shaman. God can't be held in the box of our thinking or some pseudo "holy" book. It's also absurd to think God will forgive a person (who gets away with an offense) who "seemingly" has a repentant heart rather than someone who doesn't forgive another person who continually fucks up others' lives. Come on, people, put on your thinking caps, put away your indoctrination; put on logic and reason. It's time we stop being scared of going to hell based on what judgmental people say and some pseudo holy book masterminded by the Flavian dynasty (research it).

3. Forgiveness versus confrontation? Forgiveness is not easy and should only be given to those who are truly repentant for what they've done (not just with their words/tears but with their deeds). I've noticed within the past 2, maybe 3 years, I've seen people take the forgiveness route because it's the easiest. Instead of confronting those who wronged them, they just pray for them, let it go, and say the old adage, "forgive them Father for they don't know what they're doing." I also noticed that those same people they refuse to confront are still to this day, as a venomous snake, debilitating countless others with their poison. The sad part of it is, they're still cordial with these people and the cycle of offenses, kept silent, continues (especially in the black community). There's a term in the psychology world called "Fight or Flight." Many of these environments I've been in, people would rather forgive (or say they do) than confront. Running away by way of forgiving bypasses our chance to unload the hurt we have inside our minds and hearts. It allows us to confront those that have hurt us (and vice versa) and we have to go through the arduous process of moving on. Speaking of letting it go, we can never be like God, who men have written, "sins are thrown into the sea of forgetfulness." Remember, we are not deities, we are human beings and it's our right to feel whatever human emotions we have, as long as we don't harm others. We can't just through the pain we received just like that, it takes a lot of work and a lot of time for us to make it "manageable." For some of us, forgiveness is easier and we just go on with life without telling others about themselves; however, some of us want confrontation. Either way, we want our houses to be square again, meaning, we want peace within ourselves and a good night's sleep.

4. Do we have to forgive? It's a catch 22. Ultimately, it's up to us whether or not forgiveness is an option. It's not up to our families, it's not up to our friends, it's not up to a preacher, hell, it's not up to God. We have to do what's best for us as individuals, not what's best for the people, environments, and society around us. So, if we choose to forgive, don't forgive for the sake of your fear that God won't forgive you or will send you to hell. When you forgive, you're doing it because you have sympathy for the other person, regardless if they knowingly or unknowingly fucked you over. For some of us, we just do because we don't have time to hold on to anger towards others (but that doesn't mean we have to respect them). If we choose not to forgive, don't feel bad about it and don't let some fuck ass holy roller make you feel bad, either. Some bullet wounds go so deep, the pain will never go away. Sometimes, the people you don't forgive, you tried to reason with them but they continue to "middle finger u" and keep on doing what they do best to somebody else. Whenever I bring this subject up or about my past experiences, people say, "you've got bitterness in your heart and you need to let it go." That's funny, I wonder if they'd say that to people who've experienced worse shit than me? Probably not. Damn, this is a sticky subject but man, we as individuals have to make that decision and learn to be at peace with it.

Oh yeah, for those who choose not to forgive and you express your views to some "holy rollers", here's something for you:

The following link is the definition of bitterness, http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/bitterness. It's very different from what we've been indoctrinated to believe. This blew my mind.

Take it from me, don't allow your emotions to take you to the deep end and rob you of what life presently and in future has for you (good/bad/ugly). Trust me on that one....

For those who choose to forgive and/or not to forgive, I feel you and you have every right to feel that way. People who don't walk in your shoes don't understand your pain. They never will because they're on the outside looking in. All you can do is keep making your life better and realize that you're doing the right thing. Remember this, forgiveness isn't given, it's earned, just like everything else in this crazy world.

Take care, dGwO.

Where Is The Love?

The older I get, as the times change, I'm seeing that love has become a superficial word we as a society to use. Stevie Wonder had a song that posed this question back in the 90s. Almost 20 bullets later, his truth looks absolute. I believe more and more people are becoming sociopaths to be honest. Hell, I see sociopathic tendencies in my own behavior. This morning I had to accord that I've allowed life to "trip me up." I realized that love is it already has left my heart. Or maybe I'm feeling the effects of what I perceive going on around me. Mothers are turning against their daughters. Fathers abandon their sons. Friends turn on each other. Someone catches the raw end of the deal and if they don't have a shoulder to cry on, the hurt go out into the world hurting others. I've distanced myself so I don't become the asshole others have been to me. I'll tell you right now, within the past two weeks, I've seen the total disparity of  humanity, from family, to job, to religion. All I have to ask is, where is the love? How can family members say they love each other but put knives in each other's back? How can churches/preachers  say they love God but condemn others unlike them? How can friends friend enemies; thereby betray their other friends to run with their enemies? How can spouses think so lowly of each other when things get hard? Ask yourself, where is the love in your love? 

Til Next Time.....

Hatred In The Black Community

God knows I don't want to talk about this but I need to. There's a lot of hatred in the black community. What do I mean by this? There's a lot of hatred towards each other. I guess the red letters are right, brother against brother, sister against sister, father against son, mother against daughter. In my opinion, I believe hatred within the black community can be listed as such:

1. Each other's success: When one is on the cusp or has achieved success (without screwing somebody), the other contempt for them. They tell other folks how they helped the successful one make it to where they are, to belittle them. Or just bad mouth them altogether to ruin their reputation, business, and legacy built on honesty and hard work. It's sad because we as a black community should be treating each other better but we won't. I've hoped for that day since the 80s, it's just not going to happen.

2. Life: If a black girl talks "white-ish" or expresses concerns of violence in the black co,,unity, they are called "Oreos" and coons. They're not black enough. Wow. And some of you can't lie because this actually happens in the black community.

3. Backstabbing/Lies: There are some of us in the black community that love to backstab and lie to get our way. As the O'Jays stated, for the love of money and fame, we'll take from each other. Do you think they were talking about the white man? Hell no. They were talking about the black community. We love to defame each other with lies to put ourselves on pedestals because we lack self esteem and love in our hearts.

4. Money: OMG, we'll rob, steal, kill, and destroy each other to get that green that changes in value every milli-second of the day. At times, we bait each other with these "better life now" business schemes and leaves others in financial ruin. And I'm guilty of what I'm about to say, we are so,e materialistic folks. If one has the latest gadget, we got to have it. With the more excesses we get is the more debt we incur. Therefore, we lose our buying powers and as one says this, they're called a coon or ignored. From Kinston to Compton. 

5. Services: Following our problems with money,WE LOVE FREE AND HATE TO PAY. For example, if a black man is looking for support from his own community let's say a car wash, he might as well get ready to get that support from other communities. Or for a hair stylist, they've got to put their feet down on the price of their services. If not, they won't make the money they're suppose to make. We'll pay "the white man" his money on or before time but when it's time to pay each other, "oh, I ain't forgot." Hmmmm....

6. Sexual Abuse: I myself having direct experience with this, sexual abuse is still a taboo topic. In the 80s, it was molestation of kids, forced homosexuality,  and AIDS. In the 90s, teen pregnancy, molestation, incest, and AIDS. Well, the 2000s, there's too many of this to name. I know this topic occurs in every race on the planet but I can only speak for mine. The black community is ready to condemn the LGBT community but becomes silent when it comes to the "taboo" sexual issues. 

7. Spiritual Abuse: Since most (I assume) people in the black community proclaim Jesus Christ is "truly the head of their lives", the same are experiencing spiritual abuse. Last year, the news talked about black pastors spreading the AIDS to their female congregants. We've heard of people like David Lee being "escorted" out of TD Jakes' church for exposing the truth about "tithing." We've heard one preacher misusing the words of Christ to justify his need of receiving funds to help pay back the loan on his new 65 million dollar plane (Creflo already got it folks). Since the slavery days, the black community have inherited (been brainwashed) the slave master version of Christ. And it just won't stop....

8. Love: We love rims. We love new clothes. We love new houses. We love pretence. We love fame. We love DNA (dick and attention....I've borrowed that from Mr. Sotomayor). We love mental slavery. We love the clubs. We love spending money. But you know what we don't love, each other. I tell my wife all the time, my few years in Princeton, NC was the only time I experienced hatred from another race. You know whose screwed me the most in the life, black folks. 

9. The White Man: I've heard throughout the years that the black community feels entitled to "40 acres and a mule." Guess what, keep dreaming. I know we've experienced a lot, police brutality, slavery, education, and this list goes on. Some things are for sure, we can't blame the white man for everything. We can't blame him for not educating ourselves through school, trades, the Internet. We can't blame him for not working from the bottom, adding to our work skills; thereby moving up. Nope, some of us want things to be given but unwilling to earn them. If anyone has the right of entitlement it should be the Native Americans. Read about the Trail of Tears and other atrocities brought upon them since America was "discovered." Oh yeah, you can't blame the white man for slavery. If the majority of us knew history, it was the dominant African tribes conquering and selling other tribes to receive for tools and luxuries of superiority. Hold that...

10. Black Pride: It's okay to have black pride but that doesn't mean the black community has the right to make itself superior to other races. This also means we shouldn't be thinking we're better than each other either. As my old platoon sergeant used to say, I put on my pants the same way you do. Duly noted, top.

Now, I do have black friends and we talk about this very frequently about the mind state of the black community. I really didn't want to talk about this but I was about to explode, my friends. Oh well...

Take it or leave it, till next time....

 

An Eye For An Eye

It's written that we should turn the other cheek when someone "smites us." Sorry, this doesn't apply to every situation we face in life. Honestly, this doesn't apply to me. In certain situations, we've got to strike back at those who try to take away what's ours. Some of us who rather turn the other cheek stay stuck in situations facilitated by the perpetrators. Then, in a corner phrase, we say it's "the will of God." That's ludicrous to think that way. We get stuck in a position that's holding us back from living our lives while the perps are living theirs at our expense. Tell me somebody, does God Himself sanction this behavior? I don't think so. Look at what's going on in the world. The working class in certain urban parts of China are living in underground quarters and barely making it. While this is going on, the rich and powerful are living as royalty at their expense. Women who were sexually assaulted by the former head of the IMF are living with pain. What about him? Still living like a king. As more innocent US citizens are being profiled, wrongfully detained, and at times, murdered, those in power continue to break the codes of our amendment rights. Some people just pray to God about these things hoping He will magically work it out. A lot of times, that doesn't happen. He gave us a powers called initiative and reason. We have them to "fix" these issues in a diplomatic yet stern manner (I'm learning people, cussing folks out doesn't work either). When people play that game, we don't keep letting them do it, we strike back. Look at what happened in Baltimore, look at what Mayweather did to shut the haters down (including me), look at what Halle Berry did to keep the paparazzi in check. They didn't pray or fast about it. They didn't sit and wait for a miracle. They said, an eye for an eye. You see, people nowadays don't dig the 

k-nowledge until "guns go warm." It takes them feeling your "gangster" to see their behavior and "ethics" aren't workable for the "commonwealth (us). We're living in times when people just don't care so we shouldn't care to hit them right back. No longer should we get at folks who didn't cause our pain. We get at them that did and be proud we stood up for something when they feel "our heat." Many of us are afraid to do so because we've been brainwashed thinking we're going to hell for performing  "paybacks." I think God will give us a high five because we stopped being people's doormats. I live by this principle: "For anyone who does t stand for something will fall for anything (trust me)." I don't expect for everyone to understand this grown man talk. To those who do, you're not crazy. Live by the principle of an eye for an eye. Don't kill nobody or do some overzealous mess now (prison is real). Just hit them the perps where it hurts (heart, mind, and soul). Make them an example of what happens to those who try to stifle you and yours for their dishonest gain. You'll feel better in the end.

 Til next time, my friends.....

Be Your Own Person

We're living in the age of clones. When a popular or famous person does something, the masses fall suit. Whenever someone doesn't go the major route, he or she is "left out." They become the minority against the majority. They're not looking to be in conflict with others but you know how conversations go, right? You say something that's different from what everyone else is saying, you bet your penny you'll be hearing about it. "You're wrong." "But you have to look at it like this." And my least favorite, "The Bible says..." Being your own person isn't easy because deep inside, like everyone else, we yearn to be accepted of others. The problem grows when we seek affirmation from others and don't affirm ourselves. I've seen and known many people in my lifetime that are just doing what everyone else is doing with a smile on their face (eyes say something else). But I've got the gift of discernment; and it tells me those people are hating life. They're playing the game of life like everyone else instead of playing their position. Everybody's not King James or Queen Sharmell (WWE fame), maybe we're supposed to be us. Many of us think the same because that's what is accepted. Try having a mind of your win. Some of us have our hair the same; because that is what's accepted. Try wearing your hair differently. Many of us are living like other people are living, try living your own life (dreams, bills, plan, way of life). Somebody else's truth is not your truth. Your truth is not someone else's truth. The only objective truth is God and life on this earth. Man has to subject to them however these objective truths come to him (individually). 

I'm learning to be my own person and hate any form of conformity people try to swing my way. I hope you all begin the search that will (in the words of KillahPriest), "request the universe." Don't sit here living life on everyone else's terms. Live life on your own terms. You'll feel better when you get older.

Til ext time....

The Wicked Never Die

2015 hasn't been too kind to American society so far, primarily to those who are law abiding American citizens. The event that took place in Baltimore is a hint that the more things change, the more things stay the same. It's great that those cops are being indicted for the death of Mr. Gray but we should know this won't be the last. The case of Mr. Martin should've got the ball rolling on the "powers that be" to fixed a broken and unjust penal/legal system. I remember my 9th grade history teacher, Mr. Eddie King told us" you're going to see a lot things happen from this day forward." Boy, wasn't he right. Someone told me it his past Sunday that we should "turn the other cheek" when someone "smites us." My favorite to that, BULLSHIT." In today's world, it's "AN EYE FOR AN EYE." That's what's happening right now. How long are we supposed to forgive, pray about it, and give it God? How many more people have to get murdered by police using excessive force on the innocent? How many more lives have to be controlled so the powers that be maintain their thrones in ou society? How many more children have to put up with the public school systems' idocracies of education? How many more crooked religious leaders will get away with brainwashing and terrorism? I've come to believe now that the wicked never die. Yes, no human being has the ability to live forever but the systems they filter in society does. Yes, black people have the right to vote and equal opportunities beyond measure but prejudice and racism are very prevalent in slowing this down. Yes, women have to ability to make as much if not more than their male counterparts in the workplace. However, they are stifled from achieving this reality. How many more immigrants will be deported but still used to build and restructure the homes and highways we use? Somebody please answer my question? It seems like to be successful in this country, you have to be an asshole or sociopath to do so. That's a damn shame. Recently, I've had bouts with becoming the same but in my heart of hearts, I just can't do it. But my heart, mind, and soul realizes that the wicked never die. Somehow, they get away with murder, rape, lies in the court, unequal legislation, debauchery, and other excesses. In the process, innocent blood is being spilled and these jokers don't have regrets about it. Is this God's plan, for the righteous (people trying the play the game of doing right) to suffer? I don't know for sure but I do know it's the plan of the wicked. They will continue to be wicked and raise up more assholes to more than what they've ever done. I'm glad the people of Baltimore are rioting and hope they "burn that bitch down." The wicked don't care about lives, they only care about wealth (people, money, power, property, control). Unfortunately, the masses of America doesn't see that; due to ours faces being stuck on Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter. It's easy to be wicked but hard as hell being righteous. Wickedness requires no conscience, righteousness does; the ever growing tensions of man. So long as the wicked never die, the righteous will and no martial law will shut down the voices of reason. As Roman Reigns would say, "Believe That."

Til next time......

Hello, I'm A Devil

Almost a year ago, "someone" called my wife and said that I am "the devil." Well, let's see what the Merriam-Webster Dictionary says about this word:

- an evil spirit
- an extremely wicked person
- a person of notable energy, recklessness, and dashing spirit; also  :  one who is mischievous
- something very trying or provoking
- severe criticism or rebuke
- the difficult, deceptive, or problematic part of something


So, am I this type of person? Am I really the devil? This past week, I feel like I am. Let me tell you why.

Since I've been 6 or 7 years old, I've known that I'm different. I'm an oddity, unorthodox, open minded, irreligious, and an all around nice guy. Oh yeah, I am VERY opinionated.

Since leaving the Christian religion (thank God) and refuting every other religion there is in this beautiful world (including dogmatism), I've been catching it. Any of you who've been following my blogs for a minute, I've gone through a "wonderful change." I've got no problem outing pimp preachers, historical facts about religions (i.e.-King James "Version", who was an openly gay man), talking about different waves of relationships, and the list goes on. I've got this one newly former friend get out the pocket and I had to put him in his place. Now I understand, I am a devil.

I'm a devil in certain sub-cultures of American society because I share my opinion (based on facts) and won't downplay or mince my words to make you feel better. Obviously, for the past 2 year journey to finding what this life is really about, people haven't done so with me. I'm a devil to people who like to live in their fantasy world where they believe the world revolves around them. I'm a devil because I'm not into deceptive group thinking and proud of my individuality. I'm a devil because I'd rather tell people the truth than tell a lie. I'm a devil because I take whatever road brings me to where I need to be instead of being like other folks sticking to the "one way" route.

I'll be a devil but for real though, I'm an angel. I'm not deceptive. I can be problematic to certain sociopathic, dogmatic individuals. I only get real with criticism and rebukes when those same folks get out of pocket because they believe in what THEY'RE saying is all the way right. I'm only trying and provoking when certain situations occur. I've got notable energy but not reckless, mischievous, or dashing. I'm definitely not an extremely wicked person or inhabited with evil spirits.

I'm being called and treated like a devil or a person who's lost because one, I'm not a Christian (and loving it) and don't back down to bullshit. People forget, I'm an Overton, and we don't lay down, we get down (in a verbal sense, not a physical sense). I'm not the only in this world feeling this way. I think we really don't care what people think or call us. Actually, when I'm treated like and called a devil, it boosts the inertia of success in my life. The real devils are those judging people, manipulating people, and living a world in a control. Unfortunately, there are more of us than them.
In the famous singing sigh of Bobby Womack, "huuuh." "People fear what they can't understand, that's the just the theory of man..." - Nasir Jones

Well, I know my post today is a bit "off" but eat the meat and spill out the bones.

Till next time, "Devilish Disco Dave......"

Contentment Versus Searching

As a child of the 80s, I used to hear people say, "old dogs can't learn new tricks." Since then, I've learned for old dogs to survive, they just may have to. I've come to the conclusion that my life is on a new path, a new journey, a new adventure. Most of everything and everyone I've tried to hold onto are being forced by life's hand. We should all know that this life I'm referring to is God. For the past couple of days, I've been listening to Alter Bridge's Broken Wings circa 2004. This song explains what my life has been, what it is now, and what my life will be. It's been a hard and eventful journey and I've learned the only absolute truth in this life is life itself (and everything that comes with it). This includes the good, bad, and ugly. I'm seeing more people becoming content with how their life is with no aspiration to morph into someone better. A lot of Christians and Muslims alike are content with dogmatism (which has no place in this world). Some have never left their hometown in search of seeing what this big ole world has to offer. People are just content but I don't feel that same way. The world is ours and we have to take. Whether it's performing music, starting a company, or studying different cultures, your soul is searching for something. Your soul is searching for more. That's put of the creative juices God put inside each of us. When those juices stop flowing, we've got a problem, Houston. For me, contentment is boring, uneventful, very pungent. Searching is risky, challenging, and exciting. Contentment is the breeding ground of "playing it safe" and regretting it later when we've lost the ability to be in search mode.  I see how certain people I've met in my life are just everywhere but they were happy. Other people that were content with doing the same things day after day, year after year, are like a walking ghost floating through life. I think one of reasons why some are like this is from being scared of what other people are thinking, saying, or might say about them. As for me, I'm not afraid. I'm tired of living in fear and one thing is for certain is this:

"I'd rather chase heaven on this earth because being content will lead me into an entire life filled with hell."

People can say what they want about Jay-Z, Will Ferrell, and Lady GaGa, but these people are examples of searching versus contentment. They would've been content but they chose to "step out on faith" and take chances. Some chances may have caused them pain but look at where they are today. Guess what? They're still searching for more. What about you? What about me? What about us?

Are we going to stay content with the "four walls" of religious dogmatism, J.O.B. careers, and staying in the same town/state forever? Or are we going to be like animals when the seasons change and move; searching for another place to inhabit?

The choice is up to us.

Till next time, "The Wanderer......"

Can't Handle Truth But Love The Lies

I don't agree with Paul on a lot of stuff but I'll agree with something he talked about; the itching ears. Whatever "tickles" the fancy of an individual or a group of people, it's referred to as truth. It doesn't matter if this "truth" is factual or full of bullshit. I think for a person as myself, I need to know the validity of some things people tell me. Are these things coming across my desk the truth or a way to get me chained up with everyone else? 

Anyone who knows me knows I'm a rebel and I don't care about being accepted by others (the in-crowd). One thing I'm not going to do is subject myself to lies. Lies give us comfort, hope, and keeps our social status up to par. But truth can do a whole lot more, once we get past the initial blows from it. Truth doesn't itch ears and it destroys doctrines, dogmas, and traditions with swiftness of a jab or body shot. Unfortunately, a lot of houses are built on lies. I think this is the reason why conformity is so bad and those who keep their individualism are looked upon as oddities. We're always going to have lies in our lives but the resolution of it is coming to truth. Some including myself may ask, what is truth? Whatever is irrefutable and indisputable. The numbers don't lie and the puzzle comes together. Lies on the other hand, well, they're the exact opposite of my descriptions of truth. Sometimes, I look at social media or the news and I say to myself, damn, a lot of people are fooled. I'm suspectible too. So ladies and gents, take time out of your weekly schedule to research those questions you have inside of you. We've got the information highway, Barnes and Noble, and public libraries filled with knowledge you're seeking for. Don't just people's word for what subject of interest, research it. If it comes back as bs or truth let them know. The universe was designed by a universal truth. It's up to us find it because lies are always looking to bind you.

Til next time......

The Hard Headed Never Learn

Let me say this for the record, I'm a hard head and a hot head. So, with this post, I can pull from my own experiences. There is another hard head I'd like to discuss, which is increasing in our society. This type of hard head never listens to reason. No matter how you present the facts to someone, hell, even if God came down from his throne, they won't listen. People nowadays rather cling to lies than accept truth. Hard headed people don't like reason, they only like doing what they want to do and how they want to do it. They base their own facts and circumstances on bullshit and when someone who actually knows what they're talking about; they get defensive. Hard heads always learn the hard way and no matter what you do or say to save them, it's not going to work. As the old schoolers say, "you can't make a horse drink water." For the past few years, I've been that one trying to save people from themselves. As my cousin Maine would say, "while you're trying to pull the noose from their neck, they're putting another one on you." There have been times when I've tried to kick knowledge to peope on different topics of friendship, religion, money, and family. About 95.2% of the time, I get the cold shoulder or the bullshit comments to cover the truth in saying. Have you ever gone through that? I'm pretty sure of that. I'm learning to suppress my emotions and to never get so involved, their bullshit becomes mine. If they want to go 100 MPH on a 25 MPH, go right ahead. Hard heads are everywhere and from time to time, we are too. 

Well, I'm glad to get that off my chest. Til next time....

To Every Ending There Is A Beginning

An old saying I used to here as a kid was, "when a child is born a person dies." How true it is, I wouldn't know but I think the business theory I learned from school backs it up. There's the start of a business, it's elevation, climax, and slide, and then downfall. I'm sorry, I'm basically talking about the economic cycle. But for every trough or depression, there is a rising. Jobs are added. Companies that used to be in the dumps, business is picking up (I.e.- Ford Motor Company). You get it, right? That's how life is. As I've said before many times, life is a river, it's full of changes. Nothing stays the same. Evolution is a real thing. It's the evolution of us as a person. For this to happen, certain things in our lives have to end. Certain teachings or belief systems have to live 6ft deep because they're not working for you or making you happy. The same place you've lived in for years is keeping you from living your life to the full. These people you call friends aren't seeing eye to eye anymore; so it's time for a drop off. Life is already a challenge as it is so why are we holding onto things and people making it harder? I can thank my dad for the talk we had recently. So ends a lot of things in my life and a new beginning arises. I believe it's that time we all need to re-evaluate our lives and things/people in it. Are they pushing me forward or keeping me back? It's up to us to see that.

Well, that's all I got for today. Happy Saturday.

The Mad Writer Is Back....

I was watching this YouTube of a guy named "Rock-Solid" talking about his late father. Boy, he had a lot of anger towards him and rightfully so. I won't lie, I laughed a lil bit especially when he took a picture of his father, spit on it, and threw it on the ground. You know what, I don't blame him. For the past 30 years, people are getting more shiesty, conniving, and just evil. More sociopaths are on the streets than ever before. The funny thing is, many of us see these evil traits and defend these ass-munches. Some of you following my blogs have seen my vents about a lot of stuff from church hurt, to friends who were really my enemies, to the whole cop killings of young black men. After watching his video, something sparked me to write this blog and get back in the fight. I've caught some flack from different subjects I've talked about, mostly my fact-based opinion of the "Christian" community. People have told me to let the hurt and pain go. But every time I see a young'n brainwashed like I was, it comes again. Not that I'm living in the past but knowing what I need to do in the present and do my part to advertise for a better tomorrow. Just like Rock-Solid, it's good to vent. This not only frees yourself but those who read, watch, or listen to what you have to say. Truth doesn't come through people and systems that are built on lies. Truth comes through people and systems that plow through fear for the sake of honesty. So, from now on, I'm going to continue to say that the church as we know it is totally fucked up and not "God approved." I'm going to continue to cover  different aspects of life since others are doing the same thing, too. The first amendment of the US Constitution gives me the right to say what I want. If some of you don't like it, MIDDLE FINGER U (peace to Sauce Money). Watching this video set me free because it's better to talk things out than to be consumed by the wrong emotions. This leads to other situations that result in negativity. Writing is my therapy and hopefully to help others who've been what I've been through and are going through. This life isn't easy, man; however, the greatest lesson I've learned lately is this....

To love God is to love your brother.

This means doing your part. My part is talking about things people try to distance from for the sake of protecting their status in their perspective communities. I don't have that problem. 

Thanks Rock-Solid, I'm back in the game.

You'll hear from me soon......

http://youtu.be/SppfV6wnHGE

Is The Church God?

Hello friends. I'm back and I've got something to say. Over the weekend, reports from social media and news media has been covering the latest news concerning Atlanta mega church pastor, Creflo Dollar (dolla, dolla bills yall).

 His previous airplane is basically unsuitable for traveling purposes across the world to "preach the gospel of Jesus Christ." Now, he's asking for 200,000 "participants, members, and supporters" for $300 to purchase a new 65 million plane. Then, he's asking for continual support for fuel costs and maintenance. Is this nigga crazy? My tangent begins. Isn't this the same dude back in 2007-2008 who refused to comply with a  "probe" from Senator Chuck Grassley of Iowa ("based from complaints of the public and news organizations")? Isn't this the same dude who said he wish he could shoot people who did give tithes and offerings? This story needs to wake "Christians" up because the system they say is "a hospital for sick people" has been for centuries an insane asylum (much like Arkham). It's become a system that's subtlety corrupt as the current American political climate. It's a system that robs the lower and middle billions of dollars and for the upper class a chance for more tax write offs. It's a system that calls itself "the body of Christ" made of different members and Jesus/God being the head. It's a system that is built on the shoulders of men and women who every Sunday feed the sheep. It's a system that robs the pockets, deludes the mind, represses the soul, and imprisons the spirit. This is open game for pimps, I'm sorry, preachers like Creflo to do these four things and get away with it. They rely on certain scriptures to up the ante on their actions and continue to exploit the people. You see, people in the same business as Creflo fly like other people in the world, coach or first class. Why in the hell does he need his own plane? To preach? Nigga please. You need to take your behind through security like everybody else. Maybe that'll humble you. That's the problem, he thinks he is a god specially anointed to preach. That's why it's so easy for these pimps from the local, state, national, and international to say and do whatever.  I think partly from the help of political assistance receiving kickbacks from these churches (money/power for votes, voted for money/power). The new thing I'm hearing in the church system is calling secular artists Illuminati members when the real Illuminati began and continues in the church system, also known as Babylon. You see, Creflo, whether we like or not, is going to get that plane. Pimps know how to get people to get and give up that money by any means. People believe that helping the man/woman of God in monetary fashion will receive more grace and blessings from God. As the Attitude Era of WWE attendees would say, "bullshit, bullshit..."

The church system has adopted the ol' American way called capitalism. The only ones who reach the pinnacle are those of top position. After the donations are given, do you think The Dollars are going to allow the people to ride in it? What is the return on their investment? Souls? Anybody can win a soul for any cause. The only return they're going to get is "thank you" (sound familiar to you church folks on church/pastoral anniversaries).  This is the reality and the church will continue to slip by answering the hard questions the public is asking. The church system promotes the world hates Jesus. They love to quote his words saying their persecuted because he was persecuted. I beg to differ. The world doesn't hate Jesus, the wolrd hates the church system. The church is under the microscope because it doesn't show unconditional love. It knows how to quote scriptures but can't look beyond faults to meet the need. Creflo is the prime example of the church's attitude, that it is God as no one can question what it does. Is the church God? Is the church the center of hope, direction, and healing? Is the church the master of our destiny? I don't think so. I think it's a system, like a dog infected with rabies, that needs to taken the woodshed, shot, before it spiritually kills more people. Enjoy your new plane Creflo, but God's got a fiery place in hell waiting on you after the "silver cord is loosed." You'll find it impossible to fly out of that predicament. Is the church God? By the actions we're seeing, I think so. For one to question the church or its leaders is disrespectful. Now that's bullshit....😡

Til next time.....

https://www.yahoo.com/news/megachurch-pastor-seeks-donations-pricey-private-jet-234234111.html

http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2007/11/06/AR2007110601838_pf.html

http://youtu.be/NLsDNxZcOa8

What Preachers Can Learn From Bullock "The Bullet"

I'm intrigued about the new show, "Preachers In Detroit", very intrigued. This show is covering several preachers in the Detroit area. In case you haven't been reading the news about Detroit since the early 2000's to now, let me point out some headlines to you. The Kilpatricks. High unemployment. Drugs. Violence. Unnecessary murders. Bankruptcies. Political corruption from local to state government. Police corruption.

Need I say more.

The first episode shows Deitrick Haddon (whose had his share of controversy for recent years) bringing a selected group of preachers to perform on a song to "revive" Detroit. To be honest, I think this was a great idea. Music has a way of impacting a mass number of people to begin a revolution. However, Detroit needs a little bit more than a song. It needs, as Bullock says, people on the streets.

Enter Pastor David Bullock, who I refer to as "The Bullet".

Cigar smoker. Maybe a drinker. Maybe has sex with women. Wears some Andre 3000 attire. Outspoken. Educated. Bold. Tactfully Disrespectful. As M.O.P. and Heather B stated back in '96, "That's My Kinda N!%%@."

Enter the scene in Bishop Ellis' (you know, the "presiding bishop of P.A.W.") multi-million dollar mansion with his million dollar building located outside of Detroit. The selected preachers for this show arrive and of course, the last one (as shown) to arrive is "The Bullet."

One of the bishops even stated, "we've got to pray for Bullock." Well, it's more like they need to listen to him.

He doesn't waste time. He mentions the "beautiful houses with the Bentleys parked." He mentions the MLK dream that is in Detroit "failing." He speaks of how churches are too caught up in the third heaven or the spirit realm will 400,000 people in Detroit are suffering. Some people get quiet. Some people try to flame him out. Of course, Bishop Ellis, The HNIC of the "Pow-pow" amongst preachers is offended in his own home. One of the other bishops, Langston, told The Bullet, "you're only concerned with what you want to do." The Bullet busted his Desert Eagle back saying, "No, it's about what the people want."

At the end, Langston faces off with The Bullet. Langston tells Bullock in more ways than one, to bow down when "grown folks" (bishops) are talking. The Bullet fire back:

-People in Detroit don't know you
-Black (church) people are uneducated
-The church wants to talk about the Spirit but don't want to deal with reality
-You're protected in your church on Sunday morning and if someone questions you, you'll put them out of your church
-Walks out and turns his back on the fool who couldn't "dig the k-nowledge"

That's My Kinda N!%%@!

I share the same "sentiments" as Bullock because it's time out for preachers, pastors, prophets, apostles, or whatever they're calling themselves these days for talking on Bible Study, conferences, and Sunday services. As Cypress Hill said back in '91, it's "Time For Some Action."

Putting money into the tithes and offerings bucket aren't being used to create and sustain local community programs to help computer illiterate people. You see ministry teams on the streets and spreading a gospel that is filled with propaganda for people to conform to the church system instead of telling the world God loves them. You see pastors getting richer and the congregants struggling to pay their mortgages (reminds you of how it is with congressman versus the American people).

Bullock, who's in the streets with his "Sgt Slaughter" get-ups, is voicing the minds of Detroit. The rest of these preachers are on some holiness, purity, and power struggle stuff. What's more important, purity and holiness or promoting nonviolence and getting starving families food? I think I'll pick the latter. So has Bullock "The Bullet."

I believe that before this season is over, there's going to be a lot more bullets springing up and taking shots at the church system until common sense (that God created) takes shape. People may not agree with Bullock, but as he stated, "he gives his opinions based on fact more than what's shifting in the atmosphere."


Till Next Time, preachers, I think you need to eat the plate Bullock is giving you......

Closure

This week is about closure. It's about reaching a place where enough is enough to destructive habits. It's about coming to the "knowledge of self" ("Back to the one..." as the RZA says in "The Tao Of Wu"). It's about leaving the nest and to fly into the world of the unknown. Some of you that may read this and have spoke recently know what I'm talking about. I'm pretty sure word will spread of my impending "departure" and will have some great "fake church services." As I left a place today I reference as my saving grace ("Waco RO" 8/2012 to 2/2015), it was heartbreaking to leave some good friends, who I consider family, and talking some junk to those "Cowboys." It's going to be crazy in this next phase of my life and for my family as we make the transition to the "Land of Red Clay." We've been here (if you've read my other blogs, you'll know where we're @) for 13 bullets, 11 of them in "Alcatraz." 1 of them was a time of healing. The first bullet was spent deployed. We both made the mutual decision that it's time to venture out and see what this world has to offer. Some religious folks misquote the words of Christ, "what does it profit a man for him to gain the whole world and lose his soul?" Where I live at, the religious fundamentalists believe seeking to be rich, settled, and building a good life for yourself in a "secular world" is selling your soul to the devil. That's a lie. What Christ meant is that we shouldn't trade in our soul, our very essence, the knowledge of self, in exchange for something that isn't meant for you (or us), that will only pollute you, and eventually destroy you. That's what he meant and I'd like to hear the rebuttals (sorry, you'll lose, I'm the illest dude when it comes to "The Book"). Now with all this, I've come to closure. It's not easy and it's been a long time coming. The changes and transitions are still occurring within the next few months but that's what adulthood and career is all about. It's reaching you destiny and one day my "seeds" will look at us and say, wow, mom and dad are some OGs, triple OGs. Haha. It's hard though because I'm leaving some people behind in body but still connected in spirit.

So what's the point I'm trying to make here?

The point is, whatever issues, problems, or beefs you got in your life, bring them to a closure. After watching one of my favorite shows, a conversation on there was about bring closure to a situation. So, that's what I'm doing.

We all need closure, no matter our race, culture, or creed. Closure is the stepping stone to our success. It is the platform to our stake of life in this crazy world.

Till next time, my friends........Get Closure.........

Learning To Live With Regret

One of the best songs Jay-Z ever released to the masses was off his first album Reasonable Doubt called Regrets.

On one of the hooks to the song, he states, "...in order to survive you got to learn to live with regrets."

This is a 26-27 year old dude who had many street shootouts, childhood let downs, and misgivings about the music industry per Jaz-O's rap career. Regrets affect everyone and I don't give a damn who says it doesn't. 

It doesn't matter who or what you are, the wrecking ball of regrets will come banging on our houses from time to time.

Now it's time for me to get personal....

I just found out a very close relative of mine is in the hospital due to health complications. Throughout his life, he's been dealt with a somewhat decent to shitty hand. Family secrets. His abrupt departure from his own family. Sexuality. Loss of loved ones. It's been hard on dude and as he lies on his hospital bed, regrets are beating him down. No matter what people say to him to uplift his spirits, regrets got him walking through the valley of death. No bullshit. The should, would, and could cliche utters in his brain. He thinks about the mistakes he's made as he tries to go to sleep, which lead to sleepless nights. Thoughts of his mistakes further destroys the hope of "salvation" or a better day. Hell, scriptures from the Bible/Koran or New Age terms aren't working. He's in trouble.

And so are many of us. For many of us, regrets disbar us from the forgiveness of others given. Regrets keep our vision stuck on the past; negating opportunities of the present to make a better tomorrow. Regrets are just the results of owing up to our mistakes and adulthood. Some of us succeed while many of us are stuck on the farm of horse shit. Many of who live in regret hide behind of financial successes and religious dogmas but are prisoners of regrets. We never take to the time to address them to survive to thrive. We just survive. 

I struggle with regrets and the best thing I can do is look ahead. All I can do is learn the hard lessons of the past to make me a better person. Man, I've got a lot of work to do. Hopefully, this in some way is applicable to you. Plus, it doesn't hurt to let our armor down and talk with trustworthy friends to explain how we feel. The struggle is real. And it'll last for a lifetime.....

I wish my relative the best and hope he finds the will to fight.

Till next time, my friends.......

Oh yes, Jay-Z's classic "Regrets":   http://youtu.be/lrudMt-28WU

The Sorry Nucca$ Association of America

I've been trying to hold this one in for the past couple of days but I need to release the pressure. I am so tired of these sorry niggas or nucca$ (as some say it), I really am. I can't stand the way they lie. I can't stand the way they talk. I can't stand the way they avoid confrontation. I can't stand the way they cut you off for no hot damn reason. I can't stand the way they try to shift blame on others when the blame is on them. I just can't stand it. Thankfully, there's a God in heaven that love these nucca$ unconditionally because I can't (or maybe just won't). You see, I used to be a sorry nucca long ago until I learned a thing or two about being real to self (the good, the bad, the butt ugly). However, the traits of sorry nucca$ disallows them from being real, only fake. It's like, they live in their own fairy tale world or island and won't get out of it. That's why I've titled this blog "The Sorry Nucca$ Association of America" because these joker$ are everywhere we go. Compton. Newark. Chi-Town. Minneapolis. Fargo. San Diego. Miami. Dallas. They reside in all 50 states. They are located on our jobs, in our schools, in our families, and probably some of our best friends. Sorry nucca$ are in a league of their own and care less about the opinions, thoughts, and uncontested truths found in the books of higher learning. They don't care, they only care about getting ahead. They will do whatever it takes to move forward in their lives and step all over you and your dreams to get there. I see this a lot in the Central Texas Area and some of these sorry nucca$ got the nerve to act dignified with it. They act like their poo poo doesn't stink. As "PYT" and The Miz would say, "Really?" Yes, really. It's like they have no conscience about how they treat others, how they manipulate the truth, and how they twist truth that gains a following. These are the same people The Treacherous Three talked about in one of the most famous hooks in hip-hop, "Friends, how many of us have them....someone to depend on?" Mobb Deep came out with "Shook Ones Pt. II" because these sorry nucca$ are really scared of God reality. Jay-Z and Too Short said "It was all good just a week ago" but that's as far (sometime less) a good time with sorry nucca$ last. Hell, Beyonce told these sorry nucca$ to "Listen" but of course, they never do. It would be hard to name the President/CEO of the SNAA because there's so many of them, black, white, Latino, Asian, and Arabian. Rich and poor. Educated and uneducated. I'll tell you this though, SNAA has been around for a long time and the main thing they have in common is their the nonexistence of lack thereof for common sense. In the almost famous sigh of Mr. Walter Lee Hampton II, "huuuuuuuhhhhhh......" No matter how many people tell them their attitude is off, they just don't get it. My hypothesis is this, they never will. Only the test of time will judge me if I'm right or wrong.

I need to drink of water and some lasagna to calm my nerves, my friends....

Till next time, coming to you live from The Un-Sorry Brother$ & Sister$ Association of America........