Hello, I'm A Devil

Almost a year ago, "someone" called my wife and said that I am "the devil." Well, let's see what the Merriam-Webster Dictionary says about this word:

- an evil spirit
- an extremely wicked person
- a person of notable energy, recklessness, and dashing spirit; also  :  one who is mischievous
- something very trying or provoking
- severe criticism or rebuke
- the difficult, deceptive, or problematic part of something


So, am I this type of person? Am I really the devil? This past week, I feel like I am. Let me tell you why.

Since I've been 6 or 7 years old, I've known that I'm different. I'm an oddity, unorthodox, open minded, irreligious, and an all around nice guy. Oh yeah, I am VERY opinionated.

Since leaving the Christian religion (thank God) and refuting every other religion there is in this beautiful world (including dogmatism), I've been catching it. Any of you who've been following my blogs for a minute, I've gone through a "wonderful change." I've got no problem outing pimp preachers, historical facts about religions (i.e.-King James "Version", who was an openly gay man), talking about different waves of relationships, and the list goes on. I've got this one newly former friend get out the pocket and I had to put him in his place. Now I understand, I am a devil.

I'm a devil in certain sub-cultures of American society because I share my opinion (based on facts) and won't downplay or mince my words to make you feel better. Obviously, for the past 2 year journey to finding what this life is really about, people haven't done so with me. I'm a devil to people who like to live in their fantasy world where they believe the world revolves around them. I'm a devil because I'm not into deceptive group thinking and proud of my individuality. I'm a devil because I'd rather tell people the truth than tell a lie. I'm a devil because I take whatever road brings me to where I need to be instead of being like other folks sticking to the "one way" route.

I'll be a devil but for real though, I'm an angel. I'm not deceptive. I can be problematic to certain sociopathic, dogmatic individuals. I only get real with criticism and rebukes when those same folks get out of pocket because they believe in what THEY'RE saying is all the way right. I'm only trying and provoking when certain situations occur. I've got notable energy but not reckless, mischievous, or dashing. I'm definitely not an extremely wicked person or inhabited with evil spirits.

I'm being called and treated like a devil or a person who's lost because one, I'm not a Christian (and loving it) and don't back down to bullshit. People forget, I'm an Overton, and we don't lay down, we get down (in a verbal sense, not a physical sense). I'm not the only in this world feeling this way. I think we really don't care what people think or call us. Actually, when I'm treated like and called a devil, it boosts the inertia of success in my life. The real devils are those judging people, manipulating people, and living a world in a control. Unfortunately, there are more of us than them.
In the famous singing sigh of Bobby Womack, "huuuh." "People fear what they can't understand, that's the just the theory of man..." - Nasir Jones

Well, I know my post today is a bit "off" but eat the meat and spill out the bones.

Till next time, "Devilish Disco Dave......"

Hello, My Name Is Depression

First, I'd like to dedicate this to Robin Williams, who was one hell of comedian, actor, and human being. You will be missed.

Now, let's investigate this situation more as more people in America are dealing with called depression.

depression -  a state of feeling sad

: a serious medical condition in which a person feels very sad, hopeless, and unimportant and often is unable to live in a normal way

: a period of time in which there is little economic activity and many people do not have jobs

I'd like to focus on the first two tabs of the definition. It's definitely a state of sadness, a serious medical condition, unshakable feelings of sadness, hopelessness, despair, guilt, and shame. It's something that's becoming an epidemic in American society from Hollywood stars, to famous recording artists, to teachers, to parents, to children. It's real and it's something we can't ignore any longer. Self help books, long winded sermons, and famous quotes may be good for a short span of time, but their effects don't last. Depression is a "thorn in the side" that will "buffet" you until the day you die. To be bluntly honest, I've battled depression since I was 8-9 years old, maybe even younger, who's to say, only God knows. Depression makes our vision on life look black (referring to "Paint It Black" by The Rolling Stone) and as soon as you can feel it's full effect, you may breathe your last breath. Anger, bitterness, aggression, infidelity, various forms of abuse, and rage are included with the depression when it's delivered to your door. I've heard from many "Christians" and spiritualists that you can speak to depression, pray it away, fast it away, or use quotes from "holy books" to defeat depression. Guess what, those don't work. They only deal with the outside (saving face) part of ourselves but in due time, it'll fade away and you're back in the pit again. All you're doing is suppressing what's really going on inside. One thing that I admit about Robin, DMX, and others is that they are real about the war that's raging in their mind. I think we need to start doing the same. We need to start dealing with ourselves when we look in the mirror in the morning. Not only that, we need to seek professional help, either through a local licensed counselor (psychologist, sociologist), therapy groups, etc., and whatever medication is available to you to help you. Talk with understanding and nonjudgmental friends who will listen to you wholeheartedly and be a comfort in your hard bouts with depression. Write a blog (a part of the reason why I write to this very day), a journal, video blogs, chat rooms, find a hobby, whatever you can get your sticky fingers into (that's healthy for your condition and legal). When depression is left unchecked, it leads to the destruction of this thing we call life. Suicide or homicide are the end results of unchecked depression. I know I've fought with suicide many times but I'm surviving thus far. Don't listen to these n----s who say "you need to come out of it right now", no. You need to realize this condition is going to knock on your door through your life and you will open the door, too. However, we've got to adapt and overcome to win against depression through: 1. identify it 2. find out what's causing it 3. look for a solution 4. apply the solution 5. repeat (similar to Brock Lesnar's "Eat, Sleep, Conquer, Repeat regimen). Well, I think I'm finished with this. Hopefully, this will help somebody today.

It's time to speak out and let the world know, "depression is real and it can happen to anyone."

Til next time, Mr. "I'm still fighting depression" Overton.....