Breaking The Code of Silence

It's funny how things you learn from your teachers in high school come back into your life again. That's what has happened to me over the course of few days. Reading the news, watching YouTube, reading books (currently I'm finishing up Jay-Z's Decoded), and doing a lot of thinking. It's true that I think a lot and it may be "the death of me" (meaning, modes of meditation consume me). However, I do believe that it helps me become a bit more open minded than the days past. Lately, I've been "ranting" about a few issues (now resolved, thank God) dealing with people and their ways. I think during the formidable years of my adulthood, which includes time in the Army, and time in a religion, I was "indoctrinated" to not say anything. If you have mental, professional, and/or other medical problems,  we would hear things like, "don't use sick call to get out PT", or "whatever you say about the unit will get back to the unit." Of course, one of the biggest fallacies I've heard within the past 10 or 11 years are, "don't say anything bad about God's people", "don't touch God's anointed (meaning hireling pastors)", and another favorite, "saints aren't perfect." Where in the hell is David going with this? I think in certain instances and places in American society, we are "indoctrinated" to keep quiet about certain things that are going on. Within the past 50 years, we've seen cover-ups exposed from the true nature of the Vietnam War (i.e. - Operation Deepthroat), the ongoing Gulf War, Enron scandal, the financial meltdown of 2007-2008 (recession), the Department of Education (the No Child Left Behind Act), the Drug Trade (how the government allowed the flood of cocaine/crack/heroin into the lower class Black community), and the Christian Charismatic Movement (that has allowed "spiritual leaders" to rob, steal, lie, and plunder the lives of people who are genuine in their faith in God, i.e. -Peter Popoff, Benny Hinn, etc.). Each of these are very pivotal shifts in our society and people who got tired of the people (We The People, us, according to the Preamble written by our forefathers) abusing us. We've been told to keep quiet or else "they" will expose our weakness, proclivities, and past run-ins with foolishness to the public. Some have experienced people calling them and threatening to "shut up" or else (usually threats to harm their families, especially when someone "big" is about to face hard time). People are threatened and even ostracized (excommunicated) for asking questions or speaking on issues that people need to know. I think that hip-hop, blues,  grass roots and rock-n-roll have been the modern day Platos, Aristotles, and Martin Luthers for the past and present generations of the latter 20th/early 21st centuries. When us regular folks who didn't have a voice or our voice wasn't heard in our local communities, these artist risked character and career assassinations to speak their mind. People like Bob Dylan, Lenny Kravitz, Travis Tritt, The Rolling Stones, and Nas have made cultural impact that have shed light on a few matters I've mentioned in their perspective musical field. So where am I going with this? I believe now more than ever, it's time to break the code of silence on what we know that is wrong. Of course, we must understand the right time and place to "leak information" but when it's time, "cry aloud and spare not..." If there are irregularities happening on the job that needs to be addressed, go to the "right" people and address them, no matter how they try to threaten your job security (for we have constitutional rights, never forget that). If you've been raped or sexually assaulted by someone in your family, a friend, or a neighbor, don't sit there corroding from the inside out due to anger, rage, and bitterness, report them and see it all the way to their impending jail sentence (it's a known fact when people aren't reported, these "predators" will do it again). If a teacher at your school is grading school assignments, even marking your absent on days you were present, and try to flunk you, don't just sit there and let them mess up your GPA. Let your counselors, hell, even the dean of the school know what's going on (and if they don't do anything, there's nothing wrong with going to the Internet media to expose them). If you a religious follower who's been messed over by a mosque, church, or place of worship gathering by people (most of the time it's leaders) because there are unethical practices with time, money, and talents going on (usually founded on manipulation and coercion), expose them through blogs, Vlogs, etc. (we have something those before us never had to expose these people, i.e. - technology). If someone in your hood is murdering people, shun the "Stop Snitching" doctrine and let the authorities know who's doing what (because if they continue being protected by this doctrine, they will kill again). Now, I warn you that you may receive some backlash from "blowing the whistle" but the important is that the truth gets out for the world to see. Yeah, you'll also feel a bit discouraged if people don't adhere to what you're telling and looked like a crazy person. People want to believe what they want to believe despite the irrefutable evidence at their doorstep. It's just a catch 22 world. As the old saying goes, "bad things will continue to happen when good men do nothing." That's a true statement. I can tell you all right now, I'm breaking my code of silence (as some of you can tell from my 6 plus month tear in my blog posts) and if people call me crazy, that's fine (because I know I am). When you hide the truth of what's going on in your surroundings, it will eat you alive because you'll see others' lives being negatively affected by these people we haven't outed. If Jesus did, why aren't we? Did he sit back, pray about it, and say nothing? Did Frederick Douglas just enjoy his freedom and live his own people still in chains without a voice against slavery? Think about it. Did Pussy Riot sit back and watch the Russian government do whatever without voice their opinions? Think about it. God has given us a mouth, hands, eyes, ears, and a brain to use not only for our personal advancement but to help each other. How do we help each other in the times we're living when devil in human form seem to be out of control? We break our code of silence.

Til Next Time, MC Crazy Dave.....

Stand Up For Yourself Or Stay Knocked Down

You see the title and for those who've been reading my blogs recently, you know I'm about to go on a tangent. I truly would like to thank a mall cop/building manager who works/protects a local ATL mall named Darien Long. This dude is a stand up guy and takes no crap from nobody. For those who don't know who this guy is, he is famed for tasing a "hood mother" for attacking while he asked her to leave the premises. He tased her with the quickness and is known as the mall cop taser. Within the past 2 years, he's tased a few people and boy it's funny. Some of these people (all black of course) are belligerent, foul-mouthed, idiotic, inconsiderate, hateful, disrespectful, and cunning. They test this dude all the time and he's slick about it. However, when these people cross the line, that's when he evicts them out of the mall and if they don't leave, they'll be doing Diddy's Harlem Shake horizontally. Sometimes, the cops (who can't stand these people no less than Darien Long) helms these people up, write them up, book them, and now have a criminal records for trespassing and disorderly conduct. Although these various videos he posts are entertaining, funny, and disturbing, I see things about Darien's character that we need to implement in our own lives. Honest, wisdom, connections, street-smarts, common sense, high self-esteem, strength, and a pair of you know what...
Too many of us are in Darien Long's position in our everyday lives. We have people in our lives like family, friends, coworkers, etc. who annoy us and belittle us. They don't respect us, talk about us like dogs, and defame our name/character. Many of us (especially Christians and people who "love" everybody) are doormats for sick, vile, and sociopath people. We let them do what they want to do with us and we're expected to say nothing. We are expected to turn the other cheek and let things slide. Well, here's my response to that----HELL NO (or NAW if you like the urban slang...)!!!!!!!!!!
I for one will not tolerate anyone to disrespect me, my family, my intelligence, and what I believe in. I've had to "revert" to some "old ways" with a corporate twist of course (I work for the government and just received my MBA), and will test any n---a who tries to test me. I don't care if it's the President of the United States, one of those Preachers of LA, or Rick Perry. I'm like Redman, "I'm not having that!" Before I allow people to disrespect me, I'll give them a piece of my mind and make them want to fight (and if they do, I'll be like the WWE and hit 'em with a steel chair-lmbo). But do you see the principle I'm relaying to you? I'm telling us to stand up for yourself, for your family, for your real friends. Don't let these dotards respect your life and just think stuff is sweet. Let them n----s (ignorant people) know what time is and don't waver from it. The more you let people do what they want to do with you, that a sign that you don't love or respect your life as you should. I respect and love mine and will tongue or pistol whip a fool that test me.

Now I feel a lot better. At the end of this blog, I'll share a link of Darien Long's YouTube. Now I warn you, it's got a lot of offensive language but after reading and analyzing the k-nowledge I'm giving on this post, you'll see what I'm saying.

Remember this, Stand Up For Yourself Or Stay Knocked Down! Remember this, you can't walk lying on the floor.

Til next time, my friends, David "Has Gone Mad" Overton.....

Reference:

https://www.youtube.com/user/securityofone

The Erroneous Use of Psalms 105:15

Well, before I get started on my tangent, let me warn all those who love and follow church leaders to the death (as I once did), you're not going to like today's blog post. It's time that someone stepped up and says what needs to be said about the erroneous use of Psalms 105:15, which reads:

"....Touch not mine anointed, and do my prophets no harm."

For those of us who were in or are in the institutionalized church, which I call Alcatraz, Babylon, or bondage, this is a common saying by preachers/apostles/pastors, etc. When they feel people have "disrespected" them by doing the following:

• Call them by their first name
• Questioned about finances and treatment of church members
• Feel a "demonic" assault by someone who believe in the God as they do but do things "differently"
• Rightly corrected whether by a peer or an "underling" 

And of course, this list will go on forever....

...They will pick up that mic, holler and yell at the congregation for about 2 hours (which is most of the time filled with emotional bull----), and have altar calls to see if everyone will repent to them for what they didn't say or do against them....At times in my IC (institutionalized church) career, I've seen people curse other folks who did no wrong to them but to correct them on issues they want to cover up (in the black church, you know 10/10 it's money related - hello).

Pastors and even some religious Pharisees who claim to be Christians love to use this scripture when they feel people are coming against them and "their ministry." They use this scripture to promote and instill "the fear of God" into the minds of the people (mostly to rob them of their time, talents, and tokens - money). They use this scripture as a defensive mechanism to block all criticism, correction (especially when they're obviously screwing up yet their congregation enables their bad behavior), advice, and wisdom someone (no matter who they are or where they're from) so they don't change their ways. They use this scripture to boost their own ego, pride, and selfish ambitions in the name of God. These people are usually materialistic, vain, manipulative, liars, coercive, and have very, very low self-esteem. Therefore, they use this scripture to get people to give them praise instead of God. This only breeds a corrupt heart that "preaches the gospel" for the love of themselves. They can't be corrected, they can't be held accountable. They'll all say, "I"m the pastor, I'm the chief prophet of this house, I'm the apostle, I'm God's armor bearer, I'm God's prophet", you've heard it all. But I've learned something about what the word "anointing" or being "anointed" really means. It's not about some preacher pouring a gallon of oil on your head to confirm your calling in God's kingdom. It's about laying hands on folks, prophelying, and preaching all the time at churches (but never on the street). The anointing or being anointed can be simplified as this, you're one of God's chosen. So, this means, the drunk dude on Bourbon Street in New Orleans is anointed. The porn star on hip hop videos is anointed. The crooked politician stealing votes to become Florida's governor is anointed. The 4 year old musical prodigy who can play anything from jazz and to Indian music is anointed. The AIDS victim who does advocacy for the condition she has is anointed. All being anointed or having an anointing is about using the empowerment you were born with from the day you were born. It's being the person who you're supposed to be (whether good or bad, it's up to us). So every time these preachers and prophets talk about secular artists and government leaders, you're basically touching God's anointed. Now here me out on this, Psalms 105:15 is not inclusive for church leaders, it's for everybody!"

People, read some verses before your favorite defensive punchline, which reads:

"He hath remembered his covenant for ever,

the word which he commanded to a thousand generations.

 Which covenant he made with Abraham,

and his oath unto Isaac;

 And confirmed the same unto Jacob for a law,

and to Israel for an everlasting covenant:

 Saying, Unto thee will I give the land of Canaan,

the lot of your inheritance:

 When they were but a few men in number;

yea, very few, and strangers in it.

 When they went from one nation to another,

from one kingdom to another people;

 He suffered no man to do them wrong:

yea, he reproved kings for their sakes" Psalms 105:8-14

I sort of highlighted the "theys" and "thems" because God in Psalms 105:15 was talking about Israel (the lost and found of Israel, everybody on the dog on planet). That's why he later says the greatest commandment is to love, to love your neighbor as yourself (but if you don't love yourself, you'll treat others like horse poo - hello!). Many people in our great people who are the "anointed" were corrected:

• Nathan corrected David
• Paul confronted Peter
• Malcom X and MLK corrected the US Gov't as well as the entire USA
• The LA Clippers showed their displeasure with their soon to be ousted owner Donald Sterling

Some of you religion folks probably like, David, you're twisting. No I'm not dummy, you just don't understand the underlying yet simple principles of the Bible. Maybe if you pick it up, read it, and study history, you'll see what I'm talking about, yuppie. Personally, I'll never use this because it's just plain stupid. Be a man or a woman and let people, no matter if it's the CEO of a company you work for, to the atheist who you're always judging get at you and help correct your "clear and unmistakable errors" (that's a VA term by the way). 

To all you religious folks who use Psalms 105:15 against people who have the right to get at you when you're showing your behind, know this, the same pit you build for your "enemies", you're going to fall right in it. And I'm going to make jokes about it in blog for future tangents to come. 

Til next time my friends, "You know what it is...."

Know Your Self Worth

As I approach my 33rd birthday, I'm reaching to point where I hear from other people in their mid 30s say, "I don't care what people have to eat about me. Whenever I said this line before, especially in my 20s, I really didn't mean it. Today, I can honestly say, I really don't care what people say about me, what they think, or their perception about me. To quite honest, I'm on another level than some people so I don't need their "sentiments" to define who I am. I know who I am and what I'm put on this earth to do, be, and become. Most people don't know this and depreciate themselves to find validation from others. Now that's a sad existence. People give up their dreams, goals, purpose, lives, and well being just be a part of a certain culture, group, or lifestyle. Some of us become something that's "in" to find out who we are. Some time either in our childhood or different parts of our lives, our parents, true friends, and other loved ones didn't tell us to be who we want to be. Maybe they did but we allowed the peer pressure of the "in" crowd or cult like groups bewitch us into giving up our individuality in exchange for theirs (which is foul and dehumanizing). But we don't have to do that. God has give us the ability to be who and what we are destined to be. Doctors, lawyers, architects, musicians, public speakers, human rights activists, politicians, and soldiers. We only become these when we learn who we are and let no other person take us away from it. Just as Paul said, "I am who I am." Not because of men but from the grace of God given to us. The good, the bad, and the ugly. No matter what happens in life, who we are as individuals, it evolves into a better version of who we are. Do you get me, mates? Love yourself and even those punk n----s are jealous of your contentment of self, success, and talk about you yet smile in your face. Again I say love yourself. That's what I'm doing now. Never will my self worth or self esteem be founded on someone else's preferences, false religious systems of belief, fake n----as, or material things. My self worth shall be wrapped in what and who God has made me and making me to be/become. In my opinion, my friends, I suggest you do the same.

Til next time, dgwo.....

Hurt People Hurt People: That's What I've Heard

One of my favorite albums of all time, "The Struggle" by rapper J. Johnson has a song called "Murder Instruments." I believe in the second verse of the song, he has a part in it that says this:

"Oh you injuring, yeah, you're injured, huh?
 Hurt people hurt people, that's what I've heard."

Wow. Isn't this the truth?!

He made a point here and after 4 years of listening to that verse over and over again and going through my personal experiences, I know it true. There are a lot of hurt people in our (USA) society today. People inflict hurt on others because someone else did it to them.

• Someone sexually abused will one day become the sexual abuser
• Someone who's been bullied will one day bully others
• Someone who's been physically abused their parents, spouses, etc., will one day physically abuse others
• Someone who's been emotionally/mentally abused will abuse others
• Someone's who's been financially ripped off will financially rip off others
• Someone spiritually abused will one day spiritually stagnate others.
• Someone verbally abused will one day crush another's spirit with their words.

And the list goes on....(sorry, no statistical information but feel free to do research on these topics, it's worth the look)

I believe that when we as a people don't deal with the issues of hurt, they fester in our very being (mind, will, and emotions). They systematically take over us and without thought become "first nature", meaning we hurt others at will. Men sexually abuse boys because the same has been done to them (more than just the Catholic Church but also occurs in various races and cultures). People who've been "conned" out of large amounts of money through manipulation or "raw deals" learn the same arts when they're done and out; thereby do the same to others. I've seen (literally) single parent mothers get with dudes that abused them (a lot of times in front of their kids) and then abuse their kids in various ways. The kids themselves become abusive to others because of the environment they were caged in (very prevalent in the 80s). In various religious sects (Islam, Christianity, Jehovah's Witness, Hinduism), lay workers and leaders who've been spiritually abused tend to do the same to others and many other abuses I've mentioned earlier in this blog. It's a shame and an issue that many people in our society tend to condone. I've experienced each of these items within my own life and fell victim to becoming an abuser in certain points of my life. I'm not proud of it at all because I became a facilitator of a never-ending cycle by inserting abusive practices into other peoples' lives. It's a sad cycle man and each of us have a responsibility to stop it (that's if we choose to). It's a "silent epidemic" that we tend not to focus on or really don't think about. Let's take an introspection of our past and present lives. Are we the people who've been hurt and have hurt other people? Are we the abused that now abuse others? Are we conscience of what we've experienced and what we're doing? These are the questions I'm asking myself on a dreary and uneventful day in Central Texas (which is also going through a cycle - i.e. the recent Fort Hood shootings, etc.). Think about it, my friends. Are we going to continue the cycle of various abuses by becoming abusers ourselves? Or, are we going to wake up, smell the coffee brewing at the kitchen table, make the choice to stop the cycle of abuse? Hmm... maybe I should make a song about this.....

Til next time........

Why The Black Church Is Nothing But A Failure

As you can tell from the title of this post (which I've struggling whether or not to write for months now), it's aggressive. From my own vantage point, personal experiences, and hearing of others' experiences, this is the conclusion I've come up with. Of course, not every predominant black church is a failure. There are those (very) few churches that's doing what God wants them to do, feed and clothe the homeless, take care of the widows and orphans, building up people's self-esteem, giving clear instructions, helping build people's skills for the workforce and in life, addressing social issues that need to be addressed, etc. (you get my point). However, there are many black churches (as well as any perspective predominant racial church) that are doing what God hates and harbors. Collecting tithes and offerings for the sake of building more illustrious buildings, paychecks for false preachers (which tithes and offerings are there to help those who need financial support, food, etc.), holding conferences to appease the egos of self-proclaimed "prophets", weekly emotional preaching, just tooooooo-loud singing (and wasting the flock's offering to buy a new sound system every year, that's if the pastor didn't take your money first to buy that new truck), running around the church like a crazy person in a "water-house", and rolling on the floor after the preacher-man lays hands on you (looking like an idiot), etc. (you know the rest). The majority of the predominant black church is useless, irrelevant, selfish, conniving, and without integrity/honesty, similar to the NAACP (which is nothing more than a cash-cow for its employees). The last time I've seen the predominant black church in motion was watching the Civil Rights Movement in the 1950s', 1960s', and 1980s' (just like the NAACP). After the rise of the "charismatic movement" in the 1980s' hit the United States (and maybe even abroad), sensationalism of "speaking with other tongues as the Spirit gives utterance", choirs (and choir battles, don't act like you don't remember), conferences, church television programming (BET, TBN, etc.), altar calls, gospel music (but dissed hip-hop due to "the devil's music theory", no wonder you've lost 3 or maybe even 4 generations of potential Christians), eloquent preaching (deep revelations, Greek, Hebrew, etc.), mega-churches, and zillions of local churches sprouted like weeds in the Spring time. This movement really reached its climax in the 1990s and in the early 2000s' but things started to unravel. Eddie Long manipulating and sleeping with teenage boys (to name a few indiscretions he's done). Clarence McClendon sleeping with women like there's no tomorrow and pimping his congregation for money. Juanita Bynum holding conferences and selling t-shirts telling "church addicts" (or institutionalized Christians), "buy my t-shirts and you'll receive a special anointing." Other big name preachers fleecing the flock with the tithes and offerings (Malachi 3 and Proverbs 3 10% theory) mis-quotes/misinterpretations as they buy more jets, build more wealth, while the people can't pay their bills or save up for their children's college fund. Gospel music becomes the clone world with just about every record sounding the same, saying nothing, and garner hits through biting from white Christian artists (but only sing the bridges instead of the verses, wow, and can't write a good song even if Stevie Wonder tried to help them). More mega-churches and pseudo ministries using the words and phrases like "Pentecostal, Apostolic, PAW, AME, COGIC, etc."to bait the fish to the hooks they're playing. Instead of spending time to reach the lost and promote justice/truth in the USA, now prayer/pastoral/department/ministerial meetings are more about making money, keeping ministries held within 4 walls, getting more anointing to bolster on Sunday, and to create ways to become better than the next church. Hell, look at the men in the African American community, we love God but hate church because there's no truth! Look at the break down of the black family, more single mothers, single women outweigh the number of men in the black church. Why is that? Unless the men are willing to turn into a religious bigot, they shun religion and stay away from church. Why is that? Why is that the youth hate church just as much if not more than the men do? Sunday and Wednesday (for some of you, everyday of the week, and why do you do this) services are nothing more than 4-6 or more hours of emotionalisms, judgment of those gossiping about, worship songs (that fuel a "supernatural high" but God isn't there at all), and false doctrines by narcissistic leaders saying whatever to keep "their people" in line. But where's the change in the black communities? Let's see here, places like Newark, B-more, Watts, Cincinnati, N.O., Killeen (which by the way has about 2 billion churches), and Chicago (the Vietnam of America). These places have high unemployment rates, murder rates, drug charges, domestic violence, high school dropouts, and gang activity (just look it up for your research, I could be wrong). My question is, where is the black church? Why aren't the majority of predominant black churches shutting down their "country club" meetings (like Tonex said) on Wednesdays and Sundays to feed the homeless, work with other ministries in their cities to mentor kids failing in schools, or advocating against sexual molestation? Why are predominant black churches be-friending those who are struggling with homosexuality, drugs, gang activity, beating on their kids/spouses, but spend more time judging them? Why are predominant black churches defaming people who are openly expressing concerns about their operations that are to many business analysts/professors, unethical and obviously morally wrong (in whatever spectrum you can think of)? Why are predominant black churches more concerned about themselves, their mission, their vision, their ministries, than the people they are suppose to reach with love then truth? I'll tell you why....as Jesus said, "their real father is the devil and the truth's not in them." Me, I'm no longer affiliated with the black church and as a former elder, co-conspirator, and enabler of this "wicked entertainment" called black church (and some of you white, etc. churches, too, I haven't forgotten you), I can say with full confidence. If God was in your churches, you would be making a difference, "showing compassion and pulling people out of various fires" they don't see. You'd be using your air time on BET and Oxygen to show what Christians were informed to do in the world instead of singing for a contract (that's worse than one will get the secular industry), and showing lavish lifestyles of pimps. But you are nothing but a weak, powerless, hypocritical, charismatic, delusional, greedy, selfish, manipulative, predatory, ungodly, "illuminati-like", new world order-like system that Christ hates to the uttermost (as well myself and the rest of the world that knows about you). Just as the NAACP, you are worthless and as Christ said, "when salt has lost its seasoning, its' good for nothing, and men walk all over it." Ya heard?! Some of you may ask, "David, why don't you do something about?" Well, my friends, I am, it's called #1. in the Scientific Method, "Identify The Problem." Without identifying the problem, there is no way to create a solution. Another solution, it's time to go back and really look at Jesus' life, stop with all the 3rd heaven revelational bull---- and get the principles, which the "secular world" is more successful in doing than the predominant church (except pimpin' of course, haha). It's time for humility. Time for truth. Most importantly, sit your "righteous-selves" down and learn the incredible gifts of reason, mindfulness, and common sense (hello, somebody). If I've ruffled your feathers, good. If I've came off angry, good. If I've pissed you off, that's great (that's what us Williams-Overtons-Royals do, baby!). Well, I think I'm done now. I hope these words hits just one person and when the truth hits one, the truth will spread and snatch people out of the "fantasy world" that exists in the predominant black church. To the black church, you're nothing but an epic failure. In the military, we used to say a "SNA-U." Look at the world around you, look at the local community you're supposed to reach but not reaching at all,  and look at what's happening within your own churches (rape, financial impropriety, lies, affairs, etc.). It's the truth. It's time to admit it.

Til next time, "Disco-Disaster" Dave (with the disco ball spinning around my head like a halo)....

Breaking Away From Emotionally Abusive Relationships

I'm seeing emotionally abusive relationships more common than ever before. Growing up in the 80s, it was more secretive behind closed doors, you know? I think after the crack game in '88 hit, that's when things started to unravel in front of my eyes. Fast forward to the '90s, people are becoming more outspoken on home they feel and what they do to people. Hip hop at the time was very revolutionary and cutting, which I believe opened a lot of doors to the phrase, "freedom of expression." Fast forward to present day America, emotional abuse is peaking at an all time high in just about every facet of life. Emotional abuse is done right in front of our faces but through deception isn't seen "recognizable." So my question is, what is emotional abuse?

"Emotional abuse is any kind of abuse that is emotional rather than physical in nature. It can include anything from verbal abuse and constant criticism to more subtle tactics, such as intimidation, manipulation, and refusal to ever be pleased." -

As I was driving down I35 from Wac(k)o Texas, I began to do some retrospection of my life and wow, some of things I've experienced were pretty mentally scarring. I remember Ms. Radford, my 4th grade English teacher used to criticize me a lot. She had something against us "colored" kids because most of us if not all of us were gifted. She didn't like that and through isolated and small incidents, she tried to mentally pick up apart. I remember one time she up and said to me, "You'll never amount to nothing." Wow, didn't that hurt and then created an emotion I'm still dealing with everyday called rage. I was already emotionally abused from kids in the 2nd and 3rd grade from being called a punk, a weirdo, small, and extremely skinny. So this comment only reinforced what I was originally told by some obnoxious kids. As the years go on, different "sociopath" people in my life would say certain things to help bring my self-esteem lower and lower (mostly because I had no emotional backbone). But things began to change when I was 32 and some months old. I got tired of allowing emotionally abusive relationships in my life. I began fighting back and through much knowledge I acquired from school, current job, my wife, and my "real" friends, the break-off began. I began to speak up for myself and walk with my head up high. I began to voice my opinions and cared less what other people were thinking. I began to see people for who they really are, weak, pathetic, unhappy, miserable, jealous, envious, and with low self-esteem. I refused to go to their party was somberly invited to. Ha. All the criticism that were shot at me out of their fear of my greatness rather than helping me to become a better man; cancelled. Each time I allowed blind people to lead me blindly into a ditch; overturned. Each word of hatred spewed from their mouth to destroy my mental capacity to do what's right for me and my family; shut down. I learned the best way to break away from emotionally abusive relationships is to stand on my two feet in full confidence in who, who, how, and why I am David G.W. Overton. I'm no joke and will not be someone else's emotional punch bag. Neither should you. Don't take some one's emotional abuse any longer. Fight back with your positive attitude, with your experiences, and with your knowledge of how life really works. When those people try to subtly bring you down, pipe bomb them with the quickness and without regret. My friends, you are somebody and these n----- that are trying to emotionally abuse you ain't worth the poop from the dirtiest pig on earth. Don't let your emotional attachments to people bring you down in their slop, too. Now is not the time to stick with emotionally abusive relationships, it's time to shred them up completely. I don't care if it's your siblings, your uncle, your aunt, your supervisor, your priest, your pastor, or the President of the United States! Ya heard?!

Til next time, Emotionally Abuser Free Overton.....

Reference:

http://www.counselingcenter.illinois.edu/self-help-brochures/relationship-problems/emotional-abuse/

http://www.ehow.com/how_2379720_overcome-emotional-abuse.html